The pain and suffering you are enduring are to make you stronger. They are for your future to be better than your past. Focus onward. Continue to find ways to strive for peace and stability. It may be hard but continue to endure. Remember there is no rush. Take your time. Go at your own pace.
Romans 8:26 KJV
Likewise the Spirit also helpeth our infirmities: for we know not what we should pray for as we ought: but the Spirit itself maketh intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered.